A Thankful Heart

Thou hast given so much to me,
Give one thing more, - a grateful heart;
Not thankful when it pleaseth me,
As if Thy blessings had spare days,
But such a heart whose pulse may be Thy praise.
~George Herbert

1. My family. I have the most amazing husband a woman can ask for. He shows me everyday how much he loves me by his selfless actions. He is caring and strong and I admire the person that he is. I have also been given a new beautiful creation in little Connor. It is amazing how his look of wonder and awe can inspire any person around him. When he is peaceful all is right in the world. My world is wrapped up in him, and it is amazing how I think about him constantly. I am also thankful for the rest of my wonderful family whom I can always confide in, and trust with my heart. We are each others biggest supporters and greatest fans. We jump in when one of us needs help, and I know I can always count on them. We also know the way to make each other laugh and our time together is filled with happiness.

2. My friends. How amazing it is to have a group of people in my life who are uplifting and caring. Tim and I know that we have a solid circle of close friends who build each other up and are a great social (real life) network. There is laughter and joy associated with our friendships!

3. My home. We have worked hard to be home owners and maintain it. Of course there will always be projects, but it is a wonderful feeling to rest peacefully with a roof over your head and love bursting from the walls.

4. My job. In the economy we are living through right now it is a blessing to have a stable job. I know some days are better than others, but in the long run it is the perfect fit for me right now. How lucky I am for my workday to end at 3:30pm so I can spend time with Connor, as well as get holidays and summers off. I can handle the tweens for that luxury.

5. My dog. It sounds crazy, but she's special. She is loving and protective and just the perfect little puppy (except when she barks at the mailman while Connor is trying to nap).

Connor went to the Gastroinestinal Doctor this past week, and after examining Connor, confirmed that he is suffering from Reflux and has ordered some more tests to be run to see if it is something more serious. We have x-rays scheduled as well as a swallow test. The doctor also prescribed liquid prevacid, erythromycin, and a sleep apnea monitor. The monitor has become such a godsend. We can now sleep soundly at night knowing that if he does choke the machine will alarm us. Boy does it make a loud noise at 1:45am! We found that out after it had unknowingly become unplugged and lost it's charge. Talk about jumping out of bed, scrambling to make sure Connor's ok, and then trying to figure out why the darn thing won't shut up. We attempted several times to reset it in our sleepy stupor not understanding why it wouldn't work and hoping that this siren of an alarm won't wake up Connor. Finally we checked where it plugged into the wall and found it had fallen out, at this point somehow it hadn't woken up Connor, it wasn't until his bassinet was accidentally bumped that he became upset and then wouldn't go back to sleep until 5am. When it is not shrieking at us the moments we are able to fall asleep are very satisfying. I'm not spending my entire night checking him a million times, listening and floating my finger under his nose to check for his breath. I hope that after all of his tests we will be given more answers. His poor little belly gives him constant trouble and it plagues him as well as us. Recently his reflux has occasionally escaped his mouth and nose, and it scares us and him because he can't breathe. He does enjoy his doses of Mylicon, and it gives us relief for the brief time it eases his tummy.

Connor has participated in two photo sessions this week and has really made the photographers earn their prints! Our favorite was allowing him to drink from his bottle and then pulling it away on the count of three to get the shot before he started screaming. We love faking out a 6 week old. Just kidding. But I do love having great pictures for his first Christmas! Most of the shots have his mouth still open, still attempting to suck on his bottle. Listen, you gotta do what ya gotta do! Today was our second session, given to us as a gift from Tim's boss. Tim was such a trooper, he got peed on 3 times and spit up on twice. You have to love the unexpected that comes with babies. I do think we have priceless photos that we will have for the rest of Connor's life.

Casey has been home and we've had so much fun. Of course Thanksgiving was special, but my favorite thing to do every year is to pick our Christmas trees. One for mom's house, and one for ours. It's always a process to go in and undo as many trees as we can, and then we all stand around and hold them out and compare them to see which one is perfect! Of course we came home with the trees that we love and it is truly beginning to feel like Christmas. I just can't believe it. Christmas is almost here!! Considering I've been somewhat of a hermit since Connor was born, I'm really going to have to get creative with shopping...I never wait this long! I'm not worried about it, Tim and I both feel that we already have the most amazing present, and couldn't ask for more!

Smiles make it worth it!

"Where's mommy?"



"Where's mommy?"



"Peek-a-boo, here I am!"



This may be the most fun game ever invented! In the moments of quiet and happy Connor we've decided that this is what we like to do. I get a smile and a coo every time! I live for that sweet precious smile. The interaction with him so focused on nothing else but you is so flattering. Now that is what you call undivided attention. I know I'll crave it when he's a teenager.

We went to the Pediatrician's office last Friday for his one month appt. and he weighed 8lbs 4oz! What a big boy! We went over his Silent Reflux and decided to up his dosage of Prevacid to half a tablet twice a day, and I would call her to discuss the results. After trying it for 4 days I called and we now have an appointment with a Gastrointestinal Specialist this coming week. I truly hope he can give us some answers. The poor little guy woke up to eat this morning at 4am and then dealt with his reflux the following 2 hours with no sleep. Of course I sit up with him because he'll choke and stop breathing, which is beyond scary.

Tim and I got in our first date night post Connor last Friday as well. I'm not sure I was ready to be away from Connor, but mom insisted to babysit, and I knew he was in good hands. That being said I texted her so often Tim threatened to take my phone away. I know I'll get better, but this was the first time and I know it's not easy when he starts to scream. We were in luck and he was such a sweetie for mom and Kaitlyn. Connor calms when he's with both of them, I love the bond they have. Kaitlyn can't hold him enough and mom spends time with him everyday. What a lucky boy with so many women to love him!

Tim gave me a very special present this week. It's my first mommy present, otherwise known as a Push Present. He said it's for all I've done, and for giving him Connor. It's a beautiful London Blue Topaz ring made to look like Princess Di's engagement ring. It floors me! He is an amazing husband and an exceptional father. I was joking with him last night and said after a week like this past one I've earned it. It's like a boy scout badge! "Topaz: for attempting to calm and soothe a screaming baby for up to 6 hours at a time." I've got to figure out how to earn more badges!!! On second thought, if it's anything like colic and reflux, no thanks!!

This coming week is Thanksgiving and this year it takes on a whole new meaning! Sadly I have to go back to work this week. I'm going to ease back into it and only work 7 days between now and Winter Break. It doesn't make it any easier to go in though. I can now fully understand the draw to being a stay at home mom, maybe one day.

Casey is home an I fully anticipate a week full of laughter and new great memories. I love my family. We take our Christmas pictures on Wed and I know we'll walk away with a story...bring it on!!

WOW! 1 Month Old!!

15 Across:

A condition marked by recurrent episodes of prolonged and uncontrollable crying and irritability in an otherwise healthy infant that is of unknown cause and usually subsides after three to four months of age. (Starts with "C"; 5 letters)

I don't want to even type the word let alone say it out loud. One thing Tim and I know for sure is this little boy certainly has a very strong set of pipes. I guess he feels he needs to be loud like mommy. His Jaundice is officially something we no longer have to worry about, but as that problem went away we faced a new challenge. Tim and I start to dread the evenings where crying episodes can last up to 5 hours before he finally tuckers out. It is such a helpless feeling not being able to soothe him. He'll calm enough to feed, but then he is back at it once he is done. I'm lucky that Tim and I can tag team and take turns trying to help him through it. We do laps around the living room, we take walks around the block, we get in the car and drive around the neighborhood on top of the Prevacid, gripe water, and Little Tummies. I'm learning that it is no reflection of my parenting when he gets this way, but wow, was that a hard thing to try to understand. There have been times of crying myself because I can't help him, but I feel better equipped each evening when I see the signs of a bad night. His poor little belly, I want to take away his hurt so badly. Tim has compared his bowel movements to "a car crashing through a wall". When he is finally able to relieve the pressure he can relax, but it's been a hard task for him to learn. He very literally sleeps in his car seat, that we prop in his bassinet, every night. It is the only angle that he can settle in. He also never wants to be put down, so my hands tend to be full all day long, but I don't mind holding my little man; it just means that my house will get a little messier, and facebook will have to wait. That's fine by me!

Each day Connor changes. It is amazing to look at pictures of the day he was born and look at him today. Little by little he is gaining weight and developing his own little features. My favorite new development is when he smiles at us!!! We have our play time when he is awake (and happy) and he will smile right at anyone who is loving on him. What a charmer!! We get a few coo's out of him as well, and my heart just melts. I think I'm a sucker already. He's also allowing us to get a little more sleep at night...when he sleeps, which leads to much more happy parents. Granted that means a four hour block instead of two for the first half of the night, and then another 2 hours after that. I am beyond blessed that my mom comes and sits with Connor every morning and I can grab another hour and half of sleep. That is honestly my soundest sleep...it gives me joy just thinking about it right now.

I love that Tim is home today on this gorgeous Veteran's Day and we can enjoy our little boy on his one month birthday. We're going to pop in all of the home videos we've taken this past month and relive it all. We cannot believe it's been a month already. He's growing up much too quickly, he needs to slow down just a tad. It's hard for me to even remember what day it is, let alone knowing a whole week has passed. I live by diaper changes and feedings, these are the things of mommyhood, this is how I feel like I've accomplished something. I am the world for one precious little boy. It's been a whirlwind, and true to the title of this blog, a fun ride!

3 Week Strong

It's official, Connor's Jaundice levels are stable and as of Tuesday we no longer had the Billiblanket. As for his weight we went to the Pediatrician's office 3 times this past week and he was up to 7lbs on Friday. The doctor finally told us that we do not need to come back until his one month check-up! Wahoo!!! I say that's cause for celebration. We can now breathe a little easier, and as long as I maintain his feeding schedule he should continue to gain weight! Granted, most new born size clothing still does not fit him. He's so tiny!

He may be tiny but he is VERY strong. He already rolls everywhere (he comes with warning: Do not leave unattended) and while holding him he lifts his head back to look at you. I cannot believe his ability to move his head around. I keep telling him to stop because he's growing too quickly! He loves to grab onto something while you're holding him, and you might end up with a stretched collar, or a broken necklace. We are still dealing with his silent reflux, and it's scary when he chokes and stops breathing. That kept me up most of the night last night. He started to choke and I had to aspirate him. Talk about feeling very shaken up afterwards. I'll lay in bed and just listen to his breathing all night long to make sure he's ok. Hopefully that is one thing he WILL grow out of quickly. Don't worry we've loaded up on Little Tummy's, Gripe Water, and we have a prescription for Prevacid. Something has to work!

Our little boy got to celebrate his first official holiday yesterday and he enjoyed every minute of it.....asleep! Our little bat still went trick or treating and scored great candy for his daddy. The neighbors really enjoyed seeing him, and it was so special to have him out and walking around. We've only taken small walks around our neighborhood, so this was a lot of fun to really get out and about. Tim and I took turns pushing the stroller and it was such a glimpse into our future. I loved every minute of it, Connor didn't know the difference. Tim and I went as sleep deprived parents...we would have won any costume contest, we were so convincing!